Denied

Rape my being

Strip me with your glare

Decipher my blueprint

Shred me apart

I don’t care

I transform with time

Like nature,

Constant and ceaseless

Like space,

Filled yet indefinite

The depth of soul

Can never be destroyed

Only modified

And scribbled on

By each dying second

I may no longer wait for suns to rise

Or love to come

But of my existence,

My bearable past

 I am sure

I forever remain mystified

In absolute fascination

On how things

Could, Would, Should have been

With hope that in time

 I no longer deny my worth

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Silence

This room I once knew now echoes with silence

Memories linger in this confinement

Outbursts of hatred and unspoken words

Empty faces I avoid

Muffled whispers over dinner plates

And soft footsteps across the floor

In the quiet,

My pulse fades

My body twitches,

as this fiend takes hold

can you sense the uproar?

In this wretchedness,

Selfish thoughts come alive

Fury fumes deep within

A bomb about to explode

I come out, despite the storm

This lightning about to strike me down

Can you hear the thunder of my soul?

Watch my rain pour!

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Dementia

Like a virus, it takes hold

Creeps up from behind

Grasps me by the neck

Devours all sanity

Alters my state of mind

This beast I become

My universe collapses

The sky caves in

The moon cries

Stars vanish

Darkness consumes all light

Pain hits me,

Like a bullet to head

I fall into nothingness

Vulnerable and frail

I lie here,

I hold unto you

Embracing bittersweet memories,

But it’s time to let go

This pain burns the pits of my core

This agony I cannot ignore

The gods torment me

At every turn

Under midnight rain

You to mind

Your words like weapons

Tame the beast within

Capable of turning dark skies blue

There’s a halo above your head

Could it be your disguise?

Your axe about to strike my shield

I fall on my knees

I admit defeat

Your light,

Penetrates through my darkest nights

I attempt to conceal what’s inside,

For fear of the key you hold

The power to unchain my soul

The courage to release the unknown

I dread you

Then has madness become the essence of me?

© Viviana Plasman

Cliff

Church bells calling and daemons whispering malice in my ear

Cavity in my chest screaming where is your faith

Dark clouds approaching my sky

Clench for tempest

Misery beside me begging don’t leave

Should I leap and enjoy the ride

Even if I have to wait for my body to pummel down below

Or Should I turn back to a black and white world

Bloodshot eyes can’t bear no more

Gasping for air as I hinder my despair

These ghosts and voices haunt my mind

I’m single-handedly battling tragedy

As the blood in my veins turn bitter

I weep no more for my motives are filled with resent

As my reason amuses me I dread that it controls me

Sanity will not come and madness won’t depart

I stand on the edge I query existence

Watch me create myself as my turn is near

i'm at a cliff

I take a breath I calm myself

I must prove myself

I’m alive!

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Your Doll

You hit me on the head,

Take off my dress,

Slam my body on the floor

And drag me by the hair

You hurl me away

In alien places

Abandoned and forgotten

I lie on the cold floor

Yearning for your touch,

Even if it’s just a smack

I attempt to fight this fragile state of mind

So, I reminisce on memories,

And living nightmares

All evoking you

My heart weakens

As I see your devious smile

And mischievous eyes

Peering at me

Thrilled to see me again

You gently lift me,

Caress me

And play with me

You calm my storm

Before long,

Surfaces the beast within

Wrecking everything in your path

While I succumb to your every need

I may runaway

and leave you behind

But, this curse of mine

I'd like to keep

After all,

I’d rather be yours than alone

© Viviana Plasman

Blue Devil

Scream, scream right in my face

I still won’t know you’re here

Hell broke loose, now I’m on the run

You won’t save me and daemons are on my trail

I flee among soul-less creatures and broken mirrors

Falling in the depths of horror

Fear drives me and deceit tortures me

Lurking shadows surround me

Now, I stand here before you

Ready to be damned

I shout your name and that’s when you feel the burn

We stare at each other coldly as if there was no flame

These guilty pleasures now ashes

Numbness has taken over

Grasp my hand

Cut open my chest, Remove my heart

Set me ablaze and watch my inferno

Oh sweet devil of mine, did I wound you?

Lament now your nightmare

Engraved forever in that heart of yours

I hear your agony

This is my fate

It’s no tragedy

It’s my merit

Until then

We’ll meet again in the depths of hell

© Viviana Plasman